Catching up.

I have fallen into a depression, and with that comes the big word "PROCRASTINATION". I have let way to many things fall behind. I know I'm not suddenly healed, or better, but I know that if I push myself to catch up, I wont feel so bad about my surroundings. Your environment can affect how you feel.

So here is my list of Catching Up:
*Get those Girl Scout Cookies out of the house
*Keep work tasks done and completed ahead of time
*Clean the sink 2x a day for a few days (its that bad, hate steel sinks)
*Cook 40 pounds of chicken in a week for MOPS
*Complete behind week layouts for ScrapGirls 52
*Take a photo a day NOW
*Show up for Parent Teacher conferences
*complete bible study homework this week
*begin waking up at 5 am again and continue personal study of Jesus
*quickly come up with an activity for Girl Scouts tomorrow
*keep hanging in one step at a time

So... I'm going to do it, get caught up and stay current on things I need to do. Here is one of my list tasks started:



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Valentine Sugar

Girls came home today with bags of Valentines and Candy. I am so proud of both of them, they were willing to share with zoey. I got lots of great pictures of all 3 girls eating "fun dip." Zoey did the cutest thing, she started to read the ingredients and proclaimed what was in the fun dip. Here is video i took of her!!



Zoey talks about Sugar from Angela Nussbaum on Vimeo.

Zoey got ahold of sisters fun dip Valentine candy. She started to tell me what the ingredients are...

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Lessons from God - part 1

One thing I am learning as I walk with God is that His lessons are never ones you would expect.

Recently things in my home and around me have fallen apart. Literally! One thing after another is breaking down. Does this mean I live in a disaster? Not at all. My home is one of pride for me. One of joy.

Lesson 1 : Contentment

I enjoy learning how to be content with my home and after the 2nd break down (water heater then closet) I thought God wanted me to learn even further contentment. Why would breaking things mean contentment? That is because I walked into my Husbands home, then fiance, with distaste in my mouth. The thought of lowering myself to live in a trailer was awful, but I looked at myself as a martyr for sacrificing myself for him. What a horrid way for me to think. He felt it, he heard it, he saw it... my disgust. My poor dear husband, I am so sorry! Then he got a job where he was not home for 2 weeks at a time. During his periods away, I was being changed by God. God was showing me, telling me that what a blessed person I am to have a home such as I do. A safe haven. A protector for my family. My husband did not see this change.

So when the water heater broke down, and it was my almost nagging that made him check on it. He was sure that I was rubbing in what a trash of a home we have. Oh, he was fustrated, so angry at me. I tried so hard to be nice, to be extra helpful, not quite sure what was making him angry. My works were against me. Everything I did only worked further against me. He saw it as me rubbing it in. God finally showed me a time where I could show him my hurt and speak to him. My husband told me how I made him feel. I was so aghast at myself. That my cold curt comments from over 4 years ago still hurt him.

I pray: "God, please help me to show him the growing contentment you continue to nurture within me. Please also help me to learn how to communicate with my husband, as easily as I can talk with you. Thank you for this lesson learned."

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Time for a change

My blog has been so bright and cheerful for so long, it needed a change. The funny thing is? all those flowers, the butterfly... its sooo NOT me. I love earthy colors such as browns and greens, and I love being muted. That brightness was getting to me.

So I have started to change my blog to reflect me! Hang in as this might take a day or two, but It shall be done by Friday. Will you come see it on Friday and give me your honest opinion?

Yours,
The Nut

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Word of my year - BE

Ever since reading Mandy's Blog post about Imperfect (here) I have tossed and tossed word after word though my head. What a great idea. Rather than say "lose weight" or "stop yelling"... to just pick one word and focus on it for the year. Finally, today, 13 days into January I found my word: BE

Just BE

Slow down and BE

Less do, more BE

Why BE? It started because I am over extending myself. I do this, and that, bible studies, mops, discipleship class, girl scouts, pta (pto), babysitting, more and more and more. My life is so much about doing, but i need to just BE. I need to slow down and feel things around me, experience things. I need to stop doing a hundred church related things in a desperate search to experience GOD. How am i supposed to know him, when i am so busy? I need to just BE.

I don't know how im going to do this. Some epiphanies will find their way into my brain. But that is my goal this year. BE.

Be happy
Be with God
Be a mom
Be a wife
Be silly...












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52 layouts in a year.

I am one of the masterminds at scrapgirls.com who came up with Scrap Girls 52. We (myself, Becca and the SG team) came up with a way for our members to do something like Project 365, but in a way that did not feel so overwhelming. A way that would be more forgiving if you say... got crazy and forgot to take a picture. While we are trying to take a photo a day, our main goal is to get 52 layouts done. You should check it out:

Scrap Girls 52 Thread

Here is the first week of January.

















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What is Love?

Ephesians 5:25 - Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself up for it
Titus 2:4 - that they may train the young women to love their husbands, to love their children

I have just learned what LOVE really is. Its not an emotion of passion, yearning, and joy. Its instead an ACT. If God commands husbands to love their wives, and he instructs women to learn to love their husbands, then it cannot be an emotion.

I get the weekly newsletter from Dr Gary Chapman, and he went over this. And its TRUE. I have spent the last week coming to my husband in a new way. I know his love language is acts of service, so he has come home to a clean house, home cooked meals, even his work clothes washed (ugh). The joy it brought him for me to do those simple things for him is indescribable.

I honestly will admit that I was worried about us. We have gone through so much since November, and I was so scared he was starting to hate me (My issues with the fact he was divorced, deep down Im afraid he will do the same with me, gotta get past it!). Instead, with my small selflish acts, he is now responding to me in a new way. I can almost cry right now thinking of it. I feel more LOVE from him now then ever before.

Wives - Learn to love your Husbands!!!!!

















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Christmas and Vista

Its been a bit since I last posted, my apologies. Believe it or not i have been actively communicating with hundreds of people in December. I was the email contact for some games that were going on at ScrapGirls. I had quite a blast. (though i wanted everyone to win badly!)

Anyways. Right now im frustrated with Vista! I downloaded CS4 trial to see if it will run with my computer before i purchased it. When i tried to install, it would not because Vista Service Pack 1 was not installed. So i tried to install it. I keep getting this awful error that is barely documented ANYWHERE on microsoft or the net. All i can find is lots of other people are in my place but that Microsoft has now answers.

So.. ugh. Im sitting back. Looking at my Monchhichi! YES i have one! When i was about 5, that is what i got for Christmas, a great story to be told later. But my dh remembered and he got this doll for me! Gotta love my Dear Husband! He is just too good for me sometimes. Anyways, im looking at my Monchhichi (he needs a name.. how about Walnut!) and I thought "walk away." I think i was getting all to stressed trying to figure this whole vista thing out. So lil Walnut has spoken!

(see how nutty i can be?)

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